Shopgirl

Shopgirl is a great movie. I haven't seen it in so long. Today as I was getting ready for the gym and came upon this movie on the TV listings.

This movie makes me feel happy. Smiling on the elliptical happy. But the reality is that I watch the entire movie to feel the way that Mirabelle feels so that when the last monologue is said, it means something:

Ray Porter:
As Ray Porter watches Mirabelle walk away
he feels a loss.
How is it possible,
he thinks,
to miss a woman whom he kept at a distance so that when she was gone he would not miss her.
Only then does he realize
that wanting part of her
and not all of her
hurt them both
and how he cannot justify his actions except that... well...
it was life.

Shivers! I have watched this movie about twice in a year and a half. And each time that monologue makes me think of different situations and different people. Today it just made me smile.

doggy talk

Dear Assholes with annoying pets,
I really can't stand it when you are on the phone with someone having a conversation and the person breaks into all out baby talk, cooing at their animals. Or worse yet, when they start barking orders like Go Potty Spot, while on the phone with you. It's like they act like these dogs are children. It's not cool. I don't think you're cool cause you have a dog and all this additional responsibility. Stop pretending you're a parent, realize you are a mid-twenty something kid and stop talking to your frickin dog while I am on the phone.
Your X Friend,
GatesyGirl

Top 10 Best Songs I am Listening to Right Now

In NO particular order:

1. Stranger - Sunny Day Sets Fire
2. Creeper - Islands
3. White Winter Hymnal - Fleeting Foxes
4. Eve of the Girl - Dappled Cities
5. I was the Landscape of your Dreams - Of Montreal
6. Omaha - Tapes N Tapes
7. Nude - Radiohead
8. Run Away - Super Furry Animals
9. When I Grow Up - Pussycat Dolls
10. In Other Words - Ben Kweller

On the search for new fun bands as of NOW.

Need to get the Ting Tings still... dropping the ball on that one.

Conshocken Lovin'

Last Wednesday I took my sister to college. I didn't know that visiting my good old Bloomin Alma Mater would effect me so emotionally! I fell in love with the Bloomsburg campus for the second time in my life. I walked around looking at the interesting and beautiful buildings, admiring the places to sit and just had an overwhelming feeling that THIS was the place for me.

Though walking around, I suddenly identified this feeling and love for an area as the feeling I feel for Conshohocken. I think I could be a lifer here in good ol' conshy. I love that we are sort of isolated by a big road and a river. You can walk almost everywhere and everywhere else is only 5-14 minutes away. One word: Scoops. It just seems like such a town's town. I love all of the traditions where everyone from the grandmothers to the college kids renting town houses participate in. As I continue forward into my adult life, I look forward to many more wonderful years in Conshohocken.

Count me in for Radiohead

Radiohead Concert
Last Tuesday, I went to a Radiohead concert. It was my first experience with live Radiohead other than what I saw on TV on New Years Eve... and that wasn't live. So yeah... first time.

I loved it.

A few things:
1. I have come to realize that your enjoyment of concerts really depend on who you are with. The past two concerts I have been to I have sang, danced and really gotten into it. Getting "into it" really makes a difference. I don't care that my friend and I might be the only ones dancing, if it feels right, do it.
2. Nude by Radiohead is the single most sexy song ever written. It literally makes me melt. It makes me just want to make out and slow dance with someone. That is, until the end of the song, which reminds me of Ariel singing in the little mermaid. At that point, the making out has to stop because everyone is thinking of Disney.
Lyrics: "You'll go to hell with what your dirty mind was thinking" Oh Thom... it was you that made me think those things!
3. Going to concerts ALWAYS makes me appreciate the music more.
4. I would love to be a fly on the wall and listen to the shit that comes out of Thom York's mouth on a daily basis.
5. All I Need on In Rainbows is also a freakin awesome song. You can't sit next to someone of the opposite sex and feel neutral about them listening to this song.
6. I think the In Rainbows album should only be used for make out scenes inmovies.
7. I need to not listen to this album with someone that I don't really enjoy the company of ha!

Unrelated: At the gym today, getting skinny (later to be ruined by all the cookies I ate) and heard The Shins - Pressed in a book. Heard a quote that so fits my life..

"We don't always want what is right"

THe end... so long!

What in the world?

LEt's be honest. I am only this blubbering idiot right now because I have been watching the Notebook. I cry when the title of this movie comes on and then I cry about 18 times throughout the movie. It's the single most romantic movie I have ever seen and I only hope that I meet a man that loves me half as much as Noah loves Allie.

Live and love is so confusing. I don't know what to think. I have felt this way about 3 people in my life - including this one and not one has ever been my boyfriend. And all three three are still in my life and pop up at the strangest times. Being single, I feel like I am exactly in the same drama that I was in when I met my x. It was like nothing happened - no time had passed.

eh... as Allie says in The Notebook "I am a stupid woman" but for now being stupid feels really good. I'll sit here being stupid until someone who makes me smart again comes along! :)

2 things

1. I am computer dependent... and lazy. A little under the weather on this fine Sunday morning, I thought it might be raining. Instead of getting up and looking out the window... i checked weather.com. Pathetic

2. When all my friends are away... i don't make good choices. How many dumbasss things can I do while my friends are gone. Trina comes home on Monday. Let's hope the madness stops there :)

first first one

They say humans can't remember physical pain. You can remember the pain was intense but you can't actually feel pain from the past. They say that's why women will have more than one child. They remember the actual act of giving birth was painful but they can't actually feel that pain again until they go through it again.

I think the inverse applies to love/lust/like (take your pick). I feel like humans may not be able to feel the hormonal rush of love until they are actually faced with it again.Remember? When that certain someone touched your arm and you got light headed? When there was actual electricity passing between your hands that are just inches apart, aching to touch. Remember when you actually fell asleep smiling... and then turned towards the person next to you to find that they fell asleep smiling as well?

I think that maybe that rush of ... whatever it is... that we feel when we are with certain people is forgotten when it's not there.

And then once you feel it again, you remember what it's supposed to feel like. It's the feeling that leaves you walking away from his house with your soul on fire. The feeling that gets you lost in your thoughts.So, as a reminder, I think Animal Collective hit it right on the head...

I've gotta big big big big heart beat, yeah
I think you are the sweetest thing
I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud
I've been having good days
Think we are the right age To start out own peculiar ways
With good friendly homes?
You get me freaked freaked freaked on preakness
Never met a girl that likes to drink with horses
Knows her chinese ballet
Must admit you smell like fruity nuts and good grains
When you show my purple gaze

A thing or two at night
Make me sick sick sick to kiss you and
I think that i woud vomit
But I'll do that on mondays
i dont have a work way
I like it when I bump you an accident's a truth gate
I'm humbled in your pretty lense

I'll hold you dont you go
Sometimes you're quiet and sometimes I'm quiet. Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm talkative and sometimes you're not talkative, I know....

Well i'd like to spread your perfume around the old apartment
Could we live together and agree on the same wares?
A trapeze is a bird cage even if its empty and defintintely fits the room
And we would toooo

And my dear dear dear khalana
I talk too much about you
Their ears are getting tired of me singing all the night through
Lets just talk togetherYou and me and me and you
And if theres nothing much to say
Well, silence is a bore
I've gotta big big big big heart beat, yeah
I think you are the sweetest thing
I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud
I've been having good days
Think we are the right age
To start out own peculiar ways
With good friendly homes?
Sometimes you're quiet and sometimes I'm quiet hallelujah
Sometimes I'm talkative and sometimes you're not talkative i know....
Sometimes you hear me when others they can't hear me. Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm naked and thank god Sometimes you're naked. Well, hello.....

Can I tell you that you are the purple in me?
Can I call you just to hear you, would you care?
When I saw you put your purple finger on me
There's a feelin' in your bottleFound your bottle, found your heart
Gives a feeling from your bottled little part

Hey ooooooGotta crush high
Thought I crushed all I could
Crushed all I can then I touched your hand
Crush highDont want it to stop
Cause stories of your brother make my crush high pop
And you couldnt really know cause its in my toes
And sometimes i wonder whered that crush high go
Crush high then i go and take some pills
Cause i cant do all of my dos and still feel ill
You get that whooooooo